I promise

I promise I will be back soon to write a real post. I'm looking into some giveaways, and guest bloggers. Until then I will tide you over with this cutie!

Blog Design

My friend Julie over at Farber Family Adventures is running a super awesome special on her blog designs. She is really great at doing what you want, and also has her own creative ideas. Mention my blog and she will give you a discount! Go check her out!




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How could anyone say no to this little face?

We're getting a makeover! A super huge thanks to Julie at

We're gonna be lookin good pretty soon!

Well here it is

About 2 1/2 months ago I was diagnosed with Postpartum Depression. If you are a friend or even a family member and you are wondering why you didn't know, it's because I didn't tell anyone. It wasn't because I was embarrassed, I would hope these days most people understand that there is no way to prevent it, and it's to no fault of the mother. I guess I just felt like I didn't want people to question my love or devotion to my new little miracle. There are varying degrees of it, and I think part of the reason it took so long for me to figure it out was because I was misinformed about what it actually was.

I assumed that in order to have PPD you had to have all of the extreme symptoms. Wanting to hurt yourself, and your baby. Can't get out of bed, etc. Since I didn't feel any of those things it never occur ed to me that I could have it. I was extremely stressed, but I figured what new mom isn't. I cried a lot, but who wouldn't after such sleep deprivation. Overall I just wasn't as happy as I knew I should be, as I wanted to be. I looked up the symptoms on the Internet and burst into tears. I read the list and with every symptom the guilt became heavier and heavier. I mean all I wanted my whole life was to be a mom, how could I feel this way. But after talking to my amazing doctor, and taking some time to adjust I know it is NOT MY FAULT.

After a very long night with a sick baby who couldn't sleep, I check my stuff and see that my e-crush, I mean my e-friend Krystal at Tie a Little Ribbon nominated me for a Beautiful Blogger Award! I was shocked! But I would be lying if I said I wasn't totally excited!




Thanks to Krystal @ Tie a Little Ribbon
So here's how it works...

Here are the rules for the award:

~Thank the person who nominated you and link to their blog.

~Copy the award and paste it to your blog.

~Tell us 7 interesting facts about yourself.

~Nominate 7 bloggers that you love and link to their blog.



Seven Facts:

1. I am a military wife, and we moved away from all of my friends and family a year ago....and it is still very hard.

2. I do not like fancy restaurants, Olive Garden and Texas Roadhouse are more my style.

3. It took about 2 and 1/2 months to feel like a good mom.

4. I have been biting my nails for as long as I can remember.

5. I cried at 3 movies. The Notebook, P.S I Love You, and Gran Torino

6. I am physically addicted to McDonalds Diet Coke

7. Most of the shows I watch are mindless nonsense, and I spend the whole time thinking "Why am I watching this"



My seven nominations:
Julie @ Farber Family Adventures

Molly @ The DeFranks

Jess @ Nurse Momma

Kelle @ Enjoying the Small Things

Megan @ The life of a punk rock mommy

Metta1313 @ 365 days: 30+ Mommyhood

Blair @ Heir to Blair

4 Months

What a difference 4 months makes.
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4 months ago today, October 3rd, 2009 Jayden was born. When I think back on this day, I have happy memories. Even though labor and birth were obviously nothing short of torture, I seem to remember the good, not the bad. The hospital was great, nurses were great, and actually my doctor was soooo awesome! And of course at the end of it I got the best reward, my daughter. I remember feeling like someone else. All of a sudden I wasn't me anymore. I mean I didn't have a baby, and where did my huge stomach go? It just didn't feel real. In fact it took me a week or so to even feel like Jayden was mine. But now after 4 months, the best and the hardest 4 months of my life, I know she is mine and I am so thankful.

So now here we are, still not sleeping very well, but she is amazing me everyday with her smile and her personality. She is so happy and loving. Oh and pretty damn cute if I may say so myself. So here you go, Jayden at 4 months

Formula switch = Fail!

We have had Jayden on Similac Sensitive for a few months now. I keep hearing about this bullshit... I mean magical 4 month mark where all of her gas miraculously disapears. So we decided to try to switch her to Similac Advanced. It is supposed to be closer than ever to breastmilk and we were hoping to get her on something healthier. After 3 days we have already switched back. After 2 of the worst nights the two of us have ever had, I decided that if it aint broke, don't fix it. My poor baby has been waking up every 30-45 minutes screaming. After a tummy massage and pumping out some gas, she finally goes to sleep for an hour and a half or so. A vicouse cycle that puts both of us on the edge, teetering between sanity and curling up in a ball on the floor crying "please no more gas."

You know motherhood is special, when you can wake up after a night of torture, and look over at the one who has been torturing you all night and just smile and think...God I love her. After 4 months of being a mommy to a baby that I strongly believe to be the cutest baby in the world, the fact that I haven't slept more than four hours at a time for 4 months means nothing when I look at her and see her smile at me, and I know she loves me too.